It’s days like today that make me ponder just how deep my faith runs. When I say faith, I mean trust. My thoughts may be a little incoherent or out of order but please bear with me for a while. Let me first say, I love my little family. I have a great husband who helps me out to the best he knows how and I have an adorable baby girl who recently turned 1 year old. I love both dearly.
But as all of you who are parents know, parenting isn’t easy! I have to say that it’s been a long-haul with a lot of frustrations. From post-partum depression which made it difficult to bond with baby the first few months, to dealing with colic, to dealing with a 1 year old who weighs only 17 pounds, still wakes up throughout the night, and is a very picky eater/drinker – it leaves my days and nights tired. It seems like the tough phases never end.
Now on the flip side of all this, I have been learning in my Christian walk that we can have victory over our sins and over our negative feelings. God picked me to be the parent of my little flower, not somebody else. God picked me to be who I am where I am doing what He wants me to be doing. So I should be living my life victorious and not letting parenting challenges and frustrations beat me right? I’ll answer that myself – RIGHT! I totally believe this, but when it comes down to the nitty gritty of every day, I don’t always live this trust out. I keep hearing phrases come out of my mouth like “I can’t do this another day” or “I don’t enjoy parenting right now” and while feelings can be legit they don’t always represent truth. God believes that I CAN do this another day and He will show me how to not only endure but enjoy the calling He has given me as a mom. Somehow I know I’ll get through these phases, even if they do come one right after the other in rapid succession. And somehow He will show me how to live victoriously each day, even on the really tough days. That’s what it means to be His – not to live under my circumstances but to push through them in confident victory knowing that I am more than able to do everything He has called me to do by the strength give to me by Him.
I hope seeing me lay out my raw struggles and thoughts can help others who are frustrated with their current life situations. We really need to learn to see how even the challenges are just a result of the blessing and calling He has for us. I feel so blessed to have given birth to a healthy beautiful child and I know one day I’m going to see this little baby turn into a lovely woman of God. How awesome that will be! But for now, I need to take it each day at a time trusting God through all of it – moment by moment!
Father, I thank You that You have given me the beautiful gift of a precious little life that is mine to nurture and train and raise in Your ways. I thank You that You have given me this calling and I know that You will give me the strength, energy, and creativity I need each day. I trust You! Father, who is in Heaven, blessed be Your name, Your Kingdom come, Your will be done on earth and in my life as You will it. Give me each day my daily bread and lead me not into temptation, but deliver me from evil. For Yours is the kingdom and power and glory forever and ever, Amein.
Saturday, October 22, 2011
Wednesday, October 19, 2011
IF clauses, don't forget them!
Below is something I found recently on the internet and it makes sense! Let's not forget who we are and what it means to be His! Salvation is a gift to us, but it requires our whole lives!
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– IF you forgive you will be forgive.
Mat 6:14 For if ye forgive men their trespasses, your heavenly Father will also forgive you
– IF you continue in the Word then you are a disciple.
Joh 8:31 Then said Jesus to those Jews which believed on him, “If ye continue in my word, then are ye my disciples indeed”;
– IF you don’t abide in Christ you will be cast forth as a branch.
Joh 15:6 If a man abide not in me, he is cast forth as a branch, and is withered; and men gather them, and cast them into the fire, and they are burned.
– IF you don’t continue in his goodness you will be cut off.
Rom 11:22 Behold therefore the goodness and severity of God: on them which fell, severity; but toward thee, goodness, if thou continue in his goodness: otherwise thou also shalt be cut off.
– IF you continue in the faith you will be presented holy in his sight.
Col 1:21-23 And you, that were sometime alienated and enemies in your mind by wicked works, yet now hath he reconciled in the body of his flesh through death, to present you holy and unblamable and unreprovable in his sight: If ye continue in the faith grounded and settled, and be not moved away from the hope of the gospel, which ye have heard, and which was preached to every creature which is under heaven; whereof I Paul am made a minister;
– IF you hold fast unto the end you are Christ’s house.
Heb 3:6 But Christ as a son over his own house; whose house are we, if we hold fast the confidence and the rejoicing of the hope firm unto the end.
– IF you hold your confidence steadfast unto the end you are a partaker of Christ.
Heb 3:14 For we are made partakers of Christ, if we hold the beginning of our confidence steadfast unto the end;
– IF after you are saved you sin willfully there remains no sacrifice for your sins.
Heb 10:26 For if we sin willfully after that we have received the knowledge of the truth, there remaineth no more sacrifice for sins,
– IF you keep his commandments you know Christ.
1Jn 2:3 And hereby we do know that we know him, if we keep his commandments.
– IF what you have heard remains in you, ye will continue in the Son.
1Jn 2:24 Let that therefore abide in you, which ye have heard from the beginning. If that which ye have heard from the beginning shall remain in you, ye also shall continue in the Son, and in the Father.
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– IF you forgive you will be forgive.
Mat 6:14 For if ye forgive men their trespasses, your heavenly Father will also forgive you
– IF you continue in the Word then you are a disciple.
Joh 8:31 Then said Jesus to those Jews which believed on him, “If ye continue in my word, then are ye my disciples indeed”;
– IF you don’t abide in Christ you will be cast forth as a branch.
Joh 15:6 If a man abide not in me, he is cast forth as a branch, and is withered; and men gather them, and cast them into the fire, and they are burned.
– IF you don’t continue in his goodness you will be cut off.
Rom 11:22 Behold therefore the goodness and severity of God: on them which fell, severity; but toward thee, goodness, if thou continue in his goodness: otherwise thou also shalt be cut off.
– IF you continue in the faith you will be presented holy in his sight.
Col 1:21-23 And you, that were sometime alienated and enemies in your mind by wicked works, yet now hath he reconciled in the body of his flesh through death, to present you holy and unblamable and unreprovable in his sight: If ye continue in the faith grounded and settled, and be not moved away from the hope of the gospel, which ye have heard, and which was preached to every creature which is under heaven; whereof I Paul am made a minister;
– IF you hold fast unto the end you are Christ’s house.
Heb 3:6 But Christ as a son over his own house; whose house are we, if we hold fast the confidence and the rejoicing of the hope firm unto the end.
– IF you hold your confidence steadfast unto the end you are a partaker of Christ.
Heb 3:14 For we are made partakers of Christ, if we hold the beginning of our confidence steadfast unto the end;
– IF after you are saved you sin willfully there remains no sacrifice for your sins.
Heb 10:26 For if we sin willfully after that we have received the knowledge of the truth, there remaineth no more sacrifice for sins,
– IF you keep his commandments you know Christ.
1Jn 2:3 And hereby we do know that we know him, if we keep his commandments.
– IF what you have heard remains in you, ye will continue in the Son.
1Jn 2:24 Let that therefore abide in you, which ye have heard from the beginning. If that which ye have heard from the beginning shall remain in you, ye also shall continue in the Son, and in the Father.
Saturday, October 1, 2011
Set-apart or just like the world?
I'm sitting here currently watching Christian TV. There is a pop Christian music 'star' performance and to be honest, if I can't hear the words I'd say it was just another secular performer. She sounds exactly like the pop music we'd find in today's culture.
Is this really the way we need to reach out to youth? Especially OUR (already Christian) youth? Teach them to be holy (set-apart) by telling them to be just like the world (not set apart)? Something just doesn't feel right about that.
I mean the older men are supposed to train the younger men to fulfill their God-given roles as adults and same with the older women teaching the younger. But I just don't see that as a whole in the Church today. By using the pop culture of our times, it is teaching kids to remain just that - kids! It's foolishness.
Recently I saw an advice question from a mom of a daughter wondering what age she should let her daughter date. The question shouldn’t be about what age kids should be dating as that isn't the real goal. It sorta puts it in the wrong spin/perspective. Dating is what the rest of western society does, but do we really want to subject our sons and daughters to all the emotions of dating? Hardly! It's like saying 'go play with a match, if you try enough times you might figure it out'. Does the thought of our teenage kids kissing multiple boys by the age of 20 really sound appealing or does it make parents uncomfortable? If the latter, then it's normal! God never meant it to be like it is today. It's just silliness and the foolishness of our culture.
The more I see the world in the church, the more I wanna go be a Quaker or something. I say that with some sarcasm, but for reals. Why does pop culture pervade our churches and our thought processes and mindsets? Is this what YHWH, a holy GOD, really intended for His people? From clothing to the music industry to family counseling to youth ministry – just looking too much like the world!
Is this really the way we need to reach out to youth? Especially OUR (already Christian) youth? Teach them to be holy (set-apart) by telling them to be just like the world (not set apart)? Something just doesn't feel right about that.
I mean the older men are supposed to train the younger men to fulfill their God-given roles as adults and same with the older women teaching the younger. But I just don't see that as a whole in the Church today. By using the pop culture of our times, it is teaching kids to remain just that - kids! It's foolishness.
Recently I saw an advice question from a mom of a daughter wondering what age she should let her daughter date. The question shouldn’t be about what age kids should be dating as that isn't the real goal. It sorta puts it in the wrong spin/perspective. Dating is what the rest of western society does, but do we really want to subject our sons and daughters to all the emotions of dating? Hardly! It's like saying 'go play with a match, if you try enough times you might figure it out'. Does the thought of our teenage kids kissing multiple boys by the age of 20 really sound appealing or does it make parents uncomfortable? If the latter, then it's normal! God never meant it to be like it is today. It's just silliness and the foolishness of our culture.
The more I see the world in the church, the more I wanna go be a Quaker or something. I say that with some sarcasm, but for reals. Why does pop culture pervade our churches and our thought processes and mindsets? Is this what YHWH, a holy GOD, really intended for His people? From clothing to the music industry to family counseling to youth ministry – just looking too much like the world!
Monday, September 26, 2011
Separate/Obedient - in the little things first!
I have to admit that sometimes I don't like being 'separate' because people think we're strange. But the people of God were never meant to look like the rest of the world. Obeying God is going to mean being 'strange' in the world's eyes at some point whether it's as simple as not eating pork or as big as moving where God tells you when to the world it might look foolish.
This reminds me of the Scripture that says "To whom much is given much is required" which goes along with the idea that we have to be faithful in the little things if God is going to trust us with the big things. If we're willing to be obedient in those seemingly little things such as keeping kosher (according to Torah) and not whine about it or question Him, then He can trust us to trusting in Him with our finances, with our life's decisions, with our families, ministry, etc.
It's just one way to look at it.
This reminds me of the Scripture that says "To whom much is given much is required" which goes along with the idea that we have to be faithful in the little things if God is going to trust us with the big things. If we're willing to be obedient in those seemingly little things such as keeping kosher (according to Torah) and not whine about it or question Him, then He can trust us to trusting in Him with our finances, with our life's decisions, with our families, ministry, etc.
It's just one way to look at it.
Wednesday, September 21, 2011
Wives & Mothers of Excellence
I think many times as moms, we get so stuck in the routine of being housekeeper and mommy that we somewhat lose our identity. Each day holds the same pattern and challenges. The laundry keeps piling up, we have to figure out the dinner menu as well as the kid’s breakfast and lunches, we hear ‘Moooom!’ seemingly ever 10 seconds, the beds need made, the baby blows out his diaper at least twice a day, groceries need purchased, the dog still isn’t housetrained, the husband leaves sock and underwear on the floor, the kids spilled the juice and knocked over the vase (again), aaaaaaaand the list goes on!
Okay, maybe your list doesn’t quite look like that; I know mine looks a little different too. But for each of us it becomes a necessary routine and many of us can admit that at times it can be pretty mundane. In the chaos of life and the never-ending job of being a wife and mother, it is so easy to let ourselves go. Soon we discover that we’re entirely overweight and can no longer blame it on postpartum pounds or pregnancy cravings. We no longer fancy up a bit when the husband comes home. We lose all sense of style and get into the frumpy mama look. Oh, and make-up? Who has time for that? We become so engulfed and swallowed up by the routine each day that we take no thought to ourselves, to our appearance, to our health, to our general well-being.
Being a wife and mother is something most of us have dreamed about since we were little girls. And now that it’s finally happened, it’s SO much more chaotic and ‘treadmill’ like than we ever thought possible! It’s like we become resigned to the routine in such a way that we just learn to deal with it in the quickest, most efficient way possible. And in that process, we lose ourselves. But being a wife and mother is SO much more than a list of chores. It is about respecting and adoring our husbands and cherishing and nurturing our children. It takes a lot of out of us.
So I have to ask, how can we truly love our husbands and children if we are too run-down and don’t even care about our own upkeep? Our families need us and we know that all too well, so why are we burning ourselves out? We lose so much focus when we simply do the daily routine and try to get through the day.
Take a minute and think about what you’re really doing, or better why you’re doing it. It’s all because of love. But when we lose our sense of identity and purpose, then unfortunately many of our efforts are in vain. Being a mom is a hard job, but being a tired frumpy grumpy mom isn’t any help to anyone!
This isn’t a post saying to go to the spa, go on a private vacation, or going on an elaborate shopping spree, or abandoning the family. This is about refinding who you are as a wife and mother. God created us to the purpose excellence in everything we do. It doesn’t mean that we have to be perfect at everything, but it does mean that the things we are called to do should be done in excellence. The first step is kicking out the burdens that we really do not need to take on. This leaves room for the things that really matter.
The next thing is a rather touchy subject from what I’ve noticed but I’ll go ahead anyways. There is no reason why a woman called by God to be a wife and mother has to go around frumpy, grumpy, moody, and miserable. There just is no reason for it. It takes 10 minutes to do a simple hairstyle (I know cuz I discovered a few out of necessity!), and 5 minutes to do a quick make-up job. It doesn’t take a shopping spree at the mall to find stylish clothes. I get most of my clothes second-hand for unbelievably low prices. And as far as weight loss? Making (or getting at the store) healthy meals for the family and moving about in the daily routine is a good start!
And most importantly is our spiritual lives. Too many times I've gotten so bogged down and gone throughout my whole day without spending time in worship or prayer or anything. Maybe I'll listen to music, but listening to music and worship are two different things. Even if I can actually pray and worship while folding laundry or taking the time to pray over my child as I'm putting her to sleep or study while baby naps (or in some cases, while children are at school or what-not), these are the things that put that spiritual zest back in our day. I know that listening to my iPod as I go to sleep or starting my day listening and truly worshipping while doing morning chores, these things really make my day so much more fulfilling and my mood is much better. Praise is like getting dressed for the day, it really makes a difference!
Did I mention it’s around 1am and I’m in pjs with the TV flipped on? We all have bad days, we’re going to have bad days since we belong to that race of human. But instilling healthy patterns is a start. The general statistic is that it takes 21 days to form a habit, so let’s start forming some healthy patterns. Our families need us, God gave us the husband and child(ren) that we have and He knows in Him we’re more than capable of being excellent wives and mothers. Let’s trust that He knew what He was doing when He made our dreams come true. Feel confident about who you are and show it! For you, for your husband and children, and for the glory of God. Let’s be women of excellence!
Okay, maybe your list doesn’t quite look like that; I know mine looks a little different too. But for each of us it becomes a necessary routine and many of us can admit that at times it can be pretty mundane. In the chaos of life and the never-ending job of being a wife and mother, it is so easy to let ourselves go. Soon we discover that we’re entirely overweight and can no longer blame it on postpartum pounds or pregnancy cravings. We no longer fancy up a bit when the husband comes home. We lose all sense of style and get into the frumpy mama look. Oh, and make-up? Who has time for that? We become so engulfed and swallowed up by the routine each day that we take no thought to ourselves, to our appearance, to our health, to our general well-being.
Being a wife and mother is something most of us have dreamed about since we were little girls. And now that it’s finally happened, it’s SO much more chaotic and ‘treadmill’ like than we ever thought possible! It’s like we become resigned to the routine in such a way that we just learn to deal with it in the quickest, most efficient way possible. And in that process, we lose ourselves. But being a wife and mother is SO much more than a list of chores. It is about respecting and adoring our husbands and cherishing and nurturing our children. It takes a lot of out of us.
So I have to ask, how can we truly love our husbands and children if we are too run-down and don’t even care about our own upkeep? Our families need us and we know that all too well, so why are we burning ourselves out? We lose so much focus when we simply do the daily routine and try to get through the day.
Take a minute and think about what you’re really doing, or better why you’re doing it. It’s all because of love. But when we lose our sense of identity and purpose, then unfortunately many of our efforts are in vain. Being a mom is a hard job, but being a tired frumpy grumpy mom isn’t any help to anyone!
This isn’t a post saying to go to the spa, go on a private vacation, or going on an elaborate shopping spree, or abandoning the family. This is about refinding who you are as a wife and mother. God created us to the purpose excellence in everything we do. It doesn’t mean that we have to be perfect at everything, but it does mean that the things we are called to do should be done in excellence. The first step is kicking out the burdens that we really do not need to take on. This leaves room for the things that really matter.
The next thing is a rather touchy subject from what I’ve noticed but I’ll go ahead anyways. There is no reason why a woman called by God to be a wife and mother has to go around frumpy, grumpy, moody, and miserable. There just is no reason for it. It takes 10 minutes to do a simple hairstyle (I know cuz I discovered a few out of necessity!), and 5 minutes to do a quick make-up job. It doesn’t take a shopping spree at the mall to find stylish clothes. I get most of my clothes second-hand for unbelievably low prices. And as far as weight loss? Making (or getting at the store) healthy meals for the family and moving about in the daily routine is a good start!
And most importantly is our spiritual lives. Too many times I've gotten so bogged down and gone throughout my whole day without spending time in worship or prayer or anything. Maybe I'll listen to music, but listening to music and worship are two different things. Even if I can actually pray and worship while folding laundry or taking the time to pray over my child as I'm putting her to sleep or study while baby naps (or in some cases, while children are at school or what-not), these are the things that put that spiritual zest back in our day. I know that listening to my iPod as I go to sleep or starting my day listening and truly worshipping while doing morning chores, these things really make my day so much more fulfilling and my mood is much better. Praise is like getting dressed for the day, it really makes a difference!
Did I mention it’s around 1am and I’m in pjs with the TV flipped on? We all have bad days, we’re going to have bad days since we belong to that race of human. But instilling healthy patterns is a start. The general statistic is that it takes 21 days to form a habit, so let’s start forming some healthy patterns. Our families need us, God gave us the husband and child(ren) that we have and He knows in Him we’re more than capable of being excellent wives and mothers. Let’s trust that He knew what He was doing when He made our dreams come true. Feel confident about who you are and show it! For you, for your husband and children, and for the glory of God. Let’s be women of excellence!
Thursday, September 15, 2011
A day in the life of me!
So it’s time to talk about the main theme of my blog – marriage, motherhood, and more! Today is a good day! Please bear with me whilst I elaborate!
I woke up this morning to my baby’s sounds as always, she wanted to play and I wanted to rest. So I did the natural thing, I took her into bed with me to cuddle and let her play before I got my day started. I love hanging out with my baby girl, she’s fun to have around! So after at least a half hour of relaxing while baby played, I finally dragged the both of us out of bed and got my day started.
And boy did I have a long productive day ahead of me! It’s 12:55 as I write this and so far I’ve made stuffed peppers (spoiler-alert if my husband is reading this!), brownies are in the oven, and I made a Wal-mart run for some much needed cooking items. I actually feel beautiful today as my hair turned out great, I decided to dress up a bit, and baby is all pinked out today!
Why am I writing all this seemingly unimportant nonsense about my day? Who cares, right? Well, it’s the little things that make being a wife and mother what it is. I had fun making dinner and dessert (will be sharing that dessert as some of you know!) because it’s part of loving and giving. I take pride when I have success in my calling and hospitality and giving is part of that vocation. It’s not a ugly kind of pride, but the kind that says “Hey, I like what God has given me to do and I know I’m doing my best”.
So that none of you presume that I’m ‘Suzie homemaker’, my kitchen is an absolute mess and I’m sitting at the breakfast bar eating peanut butter M&Ms. But besides that, I just wanted to say – I’m happy today! I feel like I’m right where God wants me to be today doing exactly what He wants me to be doing – loving my family and loving my life!
I woke up this morning to my baby’s sounds as always, she wanted to play and I wanted to rest. So I did the natural thing, I took her into bed with me to cuddle and let her play before I got my day started. I love hanging out with my baby girl, she’s fun to have around! So after at least a half hour of relaxing while baby played, I finally dragged the both of us out of bed and got my day started.
And boy did I have a long productive day ahead of me! It’s 12:55 as I write this and so far I’ve made stuffed peppers (spoiler-alert if my husband is reading this!), brownies are in the oven, and I made a Wal-mart run for some much needed cooking items. I actually feel beautiful today as my hair turned out great, I decided to dress up a bit, and baby is all pinked out today!
Why am I writing all this seemingly unimportant nonsense about my day? Who cares, right? Well, it’s the little things that make being a wife and mother what it is. I had fun making dinner and dessert (will be sharing that dessert as some of you know!) because it’s part of loving and giving. I take pride when I have success in my calling and hospitality and giving is part of that vocation. It’s not a ugly kind of pride, but the kind that says “Hey, I like what God has given me to do and I know I’m doing my best”.
So that none of you presume that I’m ‘Suzie homemaker’, my kitchen is an absolute mess and I’m sitting at the breakfast bar eating peanut butter M&Ms. But besides that, I just wanted to say – I’m happy today! I feel like I’m right where God wants me to be today doing exactly what He wants me to be doing – loving my family and loving my life!
Wednesday, August 31, 2011
Let's Be Family!
I’m going to skip right to the point this time and be so bold as to say, fellowship and accountability is a necessity in the family of God. We just simply aren’t meant to be isolated in our own walk with the Lord. He has placed people in our paths who can encourage us and build us up and we are called to do the same for our brothers and sisters. Part of that fellowship includes accountability. It’s not a word we like, but deep down inside many of us know that we need it.
Maybe right now, you feel you’re okay. You’re not struggling with any big sins and life is great. What about accountability of pride and complacency? Maybe there are hefty sins you’re struggling with, a mature believer can help hold you accountable in that area and push you towards repentance. It might not feel good at first, but there is so much refreshing for the person who gets right with God. We need accountability in so many areas. Our spiritual life is certainly the biggest one that comes to mind, but what about our marriages, the parenting and training of our children, our ministries, etc? There are too many times where people deliberately cut themselves off from all accountability among the brethren and things fall apart. Too many times we see spiritual leaders fall because pride got in the way and they wouldn’t submit one to another? However, the same can happen to the leaders of the home, wives, children, people in ministry, etc.
I just can’t emphasize it enough right now, people need people. I hope that as a family of God, we can be mature enough to be available when people need us and also mature enough to know when we need help too. If you don’t have mature believers whom you can trust, pray to God that He place people in your path who will walk along beside you, uplift you, and push you to a higher place! The answer could come through a church, a small group, another couple, another single parent, or that even that neighbor across the street. And you may be the answer to someone's prayer for help too! Maybe I can pray with you or help in any way, or maybe someone else. Maybe I’ll need to lean on you too. Let’s be family, truly this is what we’re called to be in Him!
Maybe right now, you feel you’re okay. You’re not struggling with any big sins and life is great. What about accountability of pride and complacency? Maybe there are hefty sins you’re struggling with, a mature believer can help hold you accountable in that area and push you towards repentance. It might not feel good at first, but there is so much refreshing for the person who gets right with God. We need accountability in so many areas. Our spiritual life is certainly the biggest one that comes to mind, but what about our marriages, the parenting and training of our children, our ministries, etc? There are too many times where people deliberately cut themselves off from all accountability among the brethren and things fall apart. Too many times we see spiritual leaders fall because pride got in the way and they wouldn’t submit one to another? However, the same can happen to the leaders of the home, wives, children, people in ministry, etc.
I just can’t emphasize it enough right now, people need people. I hope that as a family of God, we can be mature enough to be available when people need us and also mature enough to know when we need help too. If you don’t have mature believers whom you can trust, pray to God that He place people in your path who will walk along beside you, uplift you, and push you to a higher place! The answer could come through a church, a small group, another couple, another single parent, or that even that neighbor across the street. And you may be the answer to someone's prayer for help too! Maybe I can pray with you or help in any way, or maybe someone else. Maybe I’ll need to lean on you too. Let’s be family, truly this is what we’re called to be in Him!
Monday, August 29, 2011
Life Moves On, Be Steadfast and Diligent
So you think the world revolves around you, huh? No? Well, most of us sure do act like it don’t we? Well, there’s news. Life moves on and you can’t stop that. Sure you are in control of some things, but life as a whole will move right on. Even when you die, this planet will still keep right on spinning without you. So you see, you are not the center of the universe, just a little tiny speck in a world of billions of people and thousands of years. You can die anytime, people will mourn but the world as a whole won’t care. You could die today by murder, by car accident, by heart attack, or even by choking on your lunch. Pretty morose you may say? Is it really? Isn’t it reality that any of us could die any moment?
We have too much time on our hands. We worry about how we look, about how that person thinks about us, the perfect job, the perfect vacation, we worry if we have the latest gadget, we worry about such high and lofty things. And usually the high and lofty matters of society are the least in importance. While we’re worrying about if that person will notice our new hairstyle or like us, do we have any clue what is really happening around this vast globe? Do we care that children are dying of malnutrition? Do we care that missionaries in foreign lands are being persecuted in the truest sense of the word? Do we care that the old rugged man in the streets desperately needs to see that God still loves him? Do we care that the people in our churches wear masks that hide their true problems?
So you see, there’s so much more to this life than just you. Look around you, there’s a hurting dying world. Everything is passing by so quickly, time escapes us every day and minutes turn into years and then they are gone. And then we are gone.
You may have years yet, you may only have today. One day we will cease to exist as we now know it. We will fall asleep and we will wake up – to the destruction of our souls or to everlasting life and bliss. If you automatically assume it is to bliss, think again. Make sure you’re right before our God and following in His ways. If you are assured of salvation, then don’t be satisfied with that but do what you’re called to do. Every day counts and it’s not just for the sake of your blessing. Think larger than your own personal blessing, look beyond yourself. What is God doing in the earth? What is He speaking to this generation? What is He tearing down and building up? And when you seek to know, seek to know where He wants you in all of this.
Be humble before Your God and let the cares of this world fall to the side. Who cares about what this person and that person thinks; it is the approval and pleasure of the Father that matters in this life. Don’t be afraid of this life or even of death, but fear the Lord and serve Him. Work diligently in your calling and with joy, knowing that one day you will have rest and be awakened to pleasures forever in eternity and what pleasure it is when He say “Well done, my good and faithful servant, enter into the joy of your Master.”
Life moves on, quicker than any of us ever realize. So be steadfast always in His love and purposes.
We have too much time on our hands. We worry about how we look, about how that person thinks about us, the perfect job, the perfect vacation, we worry if we have the latest gadget, we worry about such high and lofty things. And usually the high and lofty matters of society are the least in importance. While we’re worrying about if that person will notice our new hairstyle or like us, do we have any clue what is really happening around this vast globe? Do we care that children are dying of malnutrition? Do we care that missionaries in foreign lands are being persecuted in the truest sense of the word? Do we care that the old rugged man in the streets desperately needs to see that God still loves him? Do we care that the people in our churches wear masks that hide their true problems?
So you see, there’s so much more to this life than just you. Look around you, there’s a hurting dying world. Everything is passing by so quickly, time escapes us every day and minutes turn into years and then they are gone. And then we are gone.
You may have years yet, you may only have today. One day we will cease to exist as we now know it. We will fall asleep and we will wake up – to the destruction of our souls or to everlasting life and bliss. If you automatically assume it is to bliss, think again. Make sure you’re right before our God and following in His ways. If you are assured of salvation, then don’t be satisfied with that but do what you’re called to do. Every day counts and it’s not just for the sake of your blessing. Think larger than your own personal blessing, look beyond yourself. What is God doing in the earth? What is He speaking to this generation? What is He tearing down and building up? And when you seek to know, seek to know where He wants you in all of this.
Be humble before Your God and let the cares of this world fall to the side. Who cares about what this person and that person thinks; it is the approval and pleasure of the Father that matters in this life. Don’t be afraid of this life or even of death, but fear the Lord and serve Him. Work diligently in your calling and with joy, knowing that one day you will have rest and be awakened to pleasures forever in eternity and what pleasure it is when He say “Well done, my good and faithful servant, enter into the joy of your Master.”
Life moves on, quicker than any of us ever realize. So be steadfast always in His love and purposes.
Saturday, August 13, 2011
Disappointment and Discernment
I have mixed feelings right now. This week I feel as though God is moving us into the next step for our lives, specifically our spiritual lives. I’ve felt this during the past couple days. I want more than anything to experience more of God in greater fullness and truth. But I know at the same time, this does not mean running around everywhere looking for a word of knowledge or new prophecy for our lives. Honestly, looking for a word or new ‘move’ of God can be dangerous if it is not founded on spiritual discernment and foundations of truth. As much as I don’t like the word ‘skepticism’ when it comes to churches and movements, I do know that we have to be careful and discerning and when something is in question, we do need to check the Word of God to see if it’s a sure word.
I’m disgusted by emotionalism and hype. Plain and simple. Humans have emotions, God has emotions and often enough I’ve felt His presence strongly and my emotions are most certainly involved. But we need to be so careful that our emotions don’t trump discernment of truth and whether His Word and works are really evident.
Recently, I was reminded of the account in Scripture about Elijah and the pagans at Mount Carmel. Not that I’m referring to anyone as pagans here, I’m not! Just thought I’d clear the air on that. However, the pagans were shouting and repeating things over and over trying to get their god(s) to move. But Elijah simply and directly called fire down from heaven and *bam!* - it happened! I specifically recall (and with amusement) Elijah mocking them saying “Maybe you should call out louder, maybe you’re god is sleeping and doesn’t hear you”. Yet, haven’t some of our churches and ‘movements’ been doing the same? Y’shua said in one of the Gospels that we needn’t babble like the pagans with many words so that He hears us. I see a lot of this all over the place and to be honest, it kinda creeps me out!
I know my post may sound judgmental or harsh, I don’t intend it to be. I really do want to see Him working in our churches with deeper understanding of the Word and with power. I want our churches to be all about Him and I go to various meetings hoping to see the real deal. But more than not anymore, I find myself disappointed. Yet in this disappointment, there is wisdom to be gained. It stirs up a lot of questions and searching of Scriptures and that’s a good thing. It also teaches me just how important discernment is and I pray more diligently for His wisdom, presence, and power to be ever stronger in me for the sake of His Kingdom.
I know that my husband and I are called to be testers of the people, specifically God’s people. We both know this and it is a difficult calling at times. It is so much easier to just let things go as they are. But sometimes we are (and have been) called to address matters as they arise. I am aware that there is a time to speak and a time to be silent. This too takes discernment. Really, it would seem everything takes discernment and that’s not a bad thing, but it does take being developed by Him and being developed means spending a lot of time in His presence which in turn means simplifying my life in such a way that my life is about Him. I truly want to live according to the verse: “In Him, we live and move and have our being.”
Our spirituality on an individual level and as churches do need to be based on the truth and power of the LORD. We can’t count on our emotions, we can’t count on numbers, and we can’t even count on signs and wonders, because not everything we hear and see is of God. But I pray that the LORD purifies His church, my family, and myself included and that we truly see the move of God in which “the blind see, lame walk, dead are raised, and the poor have the Gospel preached to them” (Matthew 11:5). It’s not a ‘new’ move, but it’s simply what being in the Kingdom is all about – truth and power!
I’m disgusted by emotionalism and hype. Plain and simple. Humans have emotions, God has emotions and often enough I’ve felt His presence strongly and my emotions are most certainly involved. But we need to be so careful that our emotions don’t trump discernment of truth and whether His Word and works are really evident.
Recently, I was reminded of the account in Scripture about Elijah and the pagans at Mount Carmel. Not that I’m referring to anyone as pagans here, I’m not! Just thought I’d clear the air on that. However, the pagans were shouting and repeating things over and over trying to get their god(s) to move. But Elijah simply and directly called fire down from heaven and *bam!* - it happened! I specifically recall (and with amusement) Elijah mocking them saying “Maybe you should call out louder, maybe you’re god is sleeping and doesn’t hear you”. Yet, haven’t some of our churches and ‘movements’ been doing the same? Y’shua said in one of the Gospels that we needn’t babble like the pagans with many words so that He hears us. I see a lot of this all over the place and to be honest, it kinda creeps me out!
I know my post may sound judgmental or harsh, I don’t intend it to be. I really do want to see Him working in our churches with deeper understanding of the Word and with power. I want our churches to be all about Him and I go to various meetings hoping to see the real deal. But more than not anymore, I find myself disappointed. Yet in this disappointment, there is wisdom to be gained. It stirs up a lot of questions and searching of Scriptures and that’s a good thing. It also teaches me just how important discernment is and I pray more diligently for His wisdom, presence, and power to be ever stronger in me for the sake of His Kingdom.
I know that my husband and I are called to be testers of the people, specifically God’s people. We both know this and it is a difficult calling at times. It is so much easier to just let things go as they are. But sometimes we are (and have been) called to address matters as they arise. I am aware that there is a time to speak and a time to be silent. This too takes discernment. Really, it would seem everything takes discernment and that’s not a bad thing, but it does take being developed by Him and being developed means spending a lot of time in His presence which in turn means simplifying my life in such a way that my life is about Him. I truly want to live according to the verse: “In Him, we live and move and have our being.”
Our spirituality on an individual level and as churches do need to be based on the truth and power of the LORD. We can’t count on our emotions, we can’t count on numbers, and we can’t even count on signs and wonders, because not everything we hear and see is of God. But I pray that the LORD purifies His church, my family, and myself included and that we truly see the move of God in which “the blind see, lame walk, dead are raised, and the poor have the Gospel preached to them” (Matthew 11:5). It’s not a ‘new’ move, but it’s simply what being in the Kingdom is all about – truth and power!
Friday, August 12, 2011
Holiness in Living
If we say we desire greater glory as seen in the days of the Acts of the apostles, then we must also accept a higher standard. For when great glory was poured out, so was the fury of the Lord upon the sins of Ananias and Saphirra. It has always been this way throughout the Scriptures, where there is great glory and revelation, where there is great responsibility and authority, there is also greater expectation for holiness and intolerance of sin and rebellion on God’s part. If we desire to walk close to Him, to hear His voice more, and for signs and wonders to abound – can we handle it? Truly, I’m being serious.
He has called us to be His, a people of the LORD – a people who know Him and obey His voice. There is so much He desires to pour into His people – revelation, understanding, power, words of knowledge, healing, etc. Will you say ‘Yes LORD, I desire to be a part of what You’re doing in the earth!’? Let's not be so easily entangled by this world and it’s lusts and passions. Promotion is given to the overcomers. Let's be diligent that we may be a pleasing fragrance to the Lord.
Let’s be careful how we live, not living carelessly for we serve a holy God. His love is jealous and His glory and power terrifying. My friend, let us never forget the fear of the Lord. Seek out the Lord with fear and trembling. Is God big in our eyes or is He small in our eyes? I think many times we treat Him as though He was insignificant in our lives and not all that important. But if we really do see Him as the great God He is, then wouldn’t our focus be on loving and obeying Him be greater than the lusts of our flesh and the pride of life?
If we want more of Him, I mean truly yearn and thirst for His presence and power in our lives, how then shall we respond? With prayer? Fasting? Worship? Those things that are purposeful in the Kingdom and our walk with Him? Or by wasting our evenings and days with the meaningless things in life, those things that draw us away from Him and His calling on our lives? Every man must choose which way he will go, what will you choose?
He has called us to be His, a people of the LORD – a people who know Him and obey His voice. There is so much He desires to pour into His people – revelation, understanding, power, words of knowledge, healing, etc. Will you say ‘Yes LORD, I desire to be a part of what You’re doing in the earth!’? Let's not be so easily entangled by this world and it’s lusts and passions. Promotion is given to the overcomers. Let's be diligent that we may be a pleasing fragrance to the Lord.
Let’s be careful how we live, not living carelessly for we serve a holy God. His love is jealous and His glory and power terrifying. My friend, let us never forget the fear of the Lord. Seek out the Lord with fear and trembling. Is God big in our eyes or is He small in our eyes? I think many times we treat Him as though He was insignificant in our lives and not all that important. But if we really do see Him as the great God He is, then wouldn’t our focus be on loving and obeying Him be greater than the lusts of our flesh and the pride of life?
If we want more of Him, I mean truly yearn and thirst for His presence and power in our lives, how then shall we respond? With prayer? Fasting? Worship? Those things that are purposeful in the Kingdom and our walk with Him? Or by wasting our evenings and days with the meaningless things in life, those things that draw us away from Him and His calling on our lives? Every man must choose which way he will go, what will you choose?
Thursday, July 28, 2011
What Is A Servant?
What is a servant and if we consider ourselves servants of the Most High, do we hold attitudes as such? In various church circles one will hear someone refer to a preacher or prophet as a ‘servant of the Lord’, but do we really act like it or grasp its meaning? When I think of a good servant, I think of one who obeys all his master’s commands and does so in proper attitude.
Firstly, do I actually obey the commands He has given me? I know there are many specifics concerning His will for my life that I have yet to discover, but that doesn’t leave me without responsibilities each day. He has spoken in His Word what is good and what He has required of me (reference to Micah 6:8). Also the blessings and gifts He has given me are not without obligation since to whom much is given, much is required (reference to Luke 12:48). Hence, I have no time to be lazy and useless as the Master does have need of me.
Next is my attitude concerning my work, am I cheerful concerning the tasks at hand and I do I give glory and praise to God? Or do I mumble and complain about what I am doing or what I have yet to do? Do I obey quickly or do I procrastinate and question Him? Do I serve in humility knowing that what I am doing is merely what I am required? After all, a master doesn’t give the servant special praise merely for carrying out the expected work (reference to Luke 17:9-10).
There are many references to servants within the parables of Master Y’shua and He does not mince words. There are faithful servants, lazy servants, vengeful servants, sly servants, financially wise servants, complaining servants, and even wicked servants. Yet they all have something in common – they are considered servants. This is key because the servant signifies believers, those in the kingdom.
Being a servant of the Most High requires much – it requires my whole life, mind soul and body. But who could ask for a better Master? He is THE Best! Today’s culture as a whole does not correctly understand or embrace the concept of servitude, there is nothing shaming about being a servant. There is actually nothing greater than being a servant, even slave, to the most loving and good Master. I only pray that I too can be a faithful servant, obedient in actions and in my heart of hearts.
Master YHWH, I pray that I am faithful to You in all matters. I desire to be faithful in all the blessings You have given to me. I also pray that I am faithful in obeying Your commandments as described in Torah. And I pray that as Your will and direction for my life unfolds, that I will be faithful in that as well. You are so good and I want to serve You well, so that You are glorified. It's not about making myself look good before men, but rather giving glory to Your name. Help me to be faithful, each and every day. Amein.
Firstly, do I actually obey the commands He has given me? I know there are many specifics concerning His will for my life that I have yet to discover, but that doesn’t leave me without responsibilities each day. He has spoken in His Word what is good and what He has required of me (reference to Micah 6:8). Also the blessings and gifts He has given me are not without obligation since to whom much is given, much is required (reference to Luke 12:48). Hence, I have no time to be lazy and useless as the Master does have need of me.
Next is my attitude concerning my work, am I cheerful concerning the tasks at hand and I do I give glory and praise to God? Or do I mumble and complain about what I am doing or what I have yet to do? Do I obey quickly or do I procrastinate and question Him? Do I serve in humility knowing that what I am doing is merely what I am required? After all, a master doesn’t give the servant special praise merely for carrying out the expected work (reference to Luke 17:9-10).
There are many references to servants within the parables of Master Y’shua and He does not mince words. There are faithful servants, lazy servants, vengeful servants, sly servants, financially wise servants, complaining servants, and even wicked servants. Yet they all have something in common – they are considered servants. This is key because the servant signifies believers, those in the kingdom.
Being a servant of the Most High requires much – it requires my whole life, mind soul and body. But who could ask for a better Master? He is THE Best! Today’s culture as a whole does not correctly understand or embrace the concept of servitude, there is nothing shaming about being a servant. There is actually nothing greater than being a servant, even slave, to the most loving and good Master. I only pray that I too can be a faithful servant, obedient in actions and in my heart of hearts.
Master YHWH, I pray that I am faithful to You in all matters. I desire to be faithful in all the blessings You have given to me. I also pray that I am faithful in obeying Your commandments as described in Torah. And I pray that as Your will and direction for my life unfolds, that I will be faithful in that as well. You are so good and I want to serve You well, so that You are glorified. It's not about making myself look good before men, but rather giving glory to Your name. Help me to be faithful, each and every day. Amein.
An Object Lesson - July 28, 2011
In writing this blog entry, I was almost as a loss on where to begin. I had nearly forgotten that I really wanted to remember a profound (to me at least!) concept I learned this morning. It is an object lesson of sorts. I was in conversation with an [unnamed] individual and was attempting to give specific instructions, but in the midst of my multiple attempts I was more than once interrupted with complaints and had to repeat myself several times. Though this minor incident hardly bothered me, it really did cause me to ponder something in a wider context.
So often we pray for the Lord’s direction in our lives and this is a good thing. We should certainly seek out the will of the Lord for our lives. But in doing so, are we waiting for answers or is it more of a series of complaints? You know I really do think we can be so busy complaining about where we are in life and what our current assignment might be that we unintentionally block out His attempts to give instruction and guidance. Or maybe we caught a glimpse of what He said and we don’t like it, so we keep praying hoping that the instructions are different. Hmmm! Maybe I’m just full of nonsense, but maybe I might actually be on to something here! Well, these are my thoughts for the evening. I’m sorry I have no kept up with my blog and my apology is more for my sake as blogging helps to clear my mind and refocus, so as always ‘Thanks for listening!’
So often we pray for the Lord’s direction in our lives and this is a good thing. We should certainly seek out the will of the Lord for our lives. But in doing so, are we waiting for answers or is it more of a series of complaints? You know I really do think we can be so busy complaining about where we are in life and what our current assignment might be that we unintentionally block out His attempts to give instruction and guidance. Or maybe we caught a glimpse of what He said and we don’t like it, so we keep praying hoping that the instructions are different. Hmmm! Maybe I’m just full of nonsense, but maybe I might actually be on to something here! Well, these are my thoughts for the evening. I’m sorry I have no kept up with my blog and my apology is more for my sake as blogging helps to clear my mind and refocus, so as always ‘Thanks for listening!’
Friday, July 22, 2011
BiRtHdAy bLoG!
So tomorrow (or today depending on when you’re reading this) is my birthday and I will be a whopping 24 years old! In some ways, it just feels like another year to me. I mean, no big numbers there! I’m not the sweet 16, not legal 18, and even beyond the ultra-special age of 21. On one hand, I could say ‘It’s just another year!’
But I am excited about my birthday, maybe even moreso than last year and even though I’m not doing anything incredibly adventurous for my big day, I have great anticipation. I want this year to be different, I’m praying this year is different. I really don’t want it to be ‘just another year’ because I know that’s not how God sees it. Each year holds so many changes and occurrences, especially in the last few years. In just the matter of a few birthdays, I’ve been engaged, married, moved to another state, pregnant, miscarried, pregnant again, now with a 9 month old – all in the timespan of a few short years.
But I guess the big excitement and anticipation I sense for this year is slightly different. I have no idea what adventures or circumstances will come my way this year, but I do greatly desire to see the Lord’s purposes come to greater fruition in me. It’s not so much that I desire to move into something huge like full time ministry or anything like that, but I want to know by the end of this year that I’ve made definite progress in my spiritual life, specifically hearing from God and obeying God. Without going into a huge spiritual blog, I have narrowed down my main goals or themes that I’ve been running into the last few days.
The first is thoughts. I desire my thought life to be established and patterned after the Word – what God says about my life and life in general, about who I am, about what I should be doing, etc. I am really desiring to actually see myself move out of the sphere of fear into the sphere of love, His love; going from fear-based thinking and acting into a Love-based thought life and actions.
The second is the realization and application of YHWH as the “I AM”. He is who He is and that is good enough for me. He is everything I need, for this day, for tomorrow, for every day, and the rest of my life. And as much as I am praying for more of Him in tangible ways, I need to be faithful whether I hear from Him each day or after many days. He is the same yesterday, today, and forever and I will trust Him in that.
And lastly is something small, but unique that I thought of within the last maybe hour or so. Tomorrow I’ll be 24 years old. There are 24 hours in a day. I desire that the LORD order my life and my time according to His purposes in me. That when I’m at work, I’ll be doing it to the best of my ability for Him. And when I’m at rest, it will be in His presence. Whether I’m housekeeping, taking care of my child, cooking for my husband, doing some type of ministry, or simply resting – I do NOT want to waste time as I have so many times. But rather I am seeking to spend my time in a way that will best glorify Him, minister to others, and edify myself.
Anyways, I think that’s about all I have to say right now. As always, thanks so much for reading!
“Lord, thank You for another year. In this year, I pray You hear my prayers and fulfill Your purposes in me to Your glory, to bless others, and to develop Your changes within me. And I know that “He who began a good work in me will bring it to completion”.
[Added] Did I mention I have other goals that intertwine with what I’ve already stated above? I definitely want to diet consistently and lose my extra ‘baby-fat’! I also want to live out the golden rule – to do unto others as I would wish them to do unto me. This year sounds like it’s going to be a tough, challenging course with much homework and concentration, but it will be so worth it! I know I can’t do these things of my own willpower and strength, thankfully I have the comfort and aide of His Spirit readily available at all times prompting me, convicting me, guiding me, and always pointing me back to Him. Oh, I also would like to develop a much more developed prayer life including greater intimacy with the Lord and deeper intercession for the saints and the lost alike. I can't wait for this new year and new season! Bring it on!
But I am excited about my birthday, maybe even moreso than last year and even though I’m not doing anything incredibly adventurous for my big day, I have great anticipation. I want this year to be different, I’m praying this year is different. I really don’t want it to be ‘just another year’ because I know that’s not how God sees it. Each year holds so many changes and occurrences, especially in the last few years. In just the matter of a few birthdays, I’ve been engaged, married, moved to another state, pregnant, miscarried, pregnant again, now with a 9 month old – all in the timespan of a few short years.
But I guess the big excitement and anticipation I sense for this year is slightly different. I have no idea what adventures or circumstances will come my way this year, but I do greatly desire to see the Lord’s purposes come to greater fruition in me. It’s not so much that I desire to move into something huge like full time ministry or anything like that, but I want to know by the end of this year that I’ve made definite progress in my spiritual life, specifically hearing from God and obeying God. Without going into a huge spiritual blog, I have narrowed down my main goals or themes that I’ve been running into the last few days.
The first is thoughts. I desire my thought life to be established and patterned after the Word – what God says about my life and life in general, about who I am, about what I should be doing, etc. I am really desiring to actually see myself move out of the sphere of fear into the sphere of love, His love; going from fear-based thinking and acting into a Love-based thought life and actions.
The second is the realization and application of YHWH as the “I AM”. He is who He is and that is good enough for me. He is everything I need, for this day, for tomorrow, for every day, and the rest of my life. And as much as I am praying for more of Him in tangible ways, I need to be faithful whether I hear from Him each day or after many days. He is the same yesterday, today, and forever and I will trust Him in that.
And lastly is something small, but unique that I thought of within the last maybe hour or so. Tomorrow I’ll be 24 years old. There are 24 hours in a day. I desire that the LORD order my life and my time according to His purposes in me. That when I’m at work, I’ll be doing it to the best of my ability for Him. And when I’m at rest, it will be in His presence. Whether I’m housekeeping, taking care of my child, cooking for my husband, doing some type of ministry, or simply resting – I do NOT want to waste time as I have so many times. But rather I am seeking to spend my time in a way that will best glorify Him, minister to others, and edify myself.
Anyways, I think that’s about all I have to say right now. As always, thanks so much for reading!
“Lord, thank You for another year. In this year, I pray You hear my prayers and fulfill Your purposes in me to Your glory, to bless others, and to develop Your changes within me. And I know that “He who began a good work in me will bring it to completion”.
[Added] Did I mention I have other goals that intertwine with what I’ve already stated above? I definitely want to diet consistently and lose my extra ‘baby-fat’! I also want to live out the golden rule – to do unto others as I would wish them to do unto me. This year sounds like it’s going to be a tough, challenging course with much homework and concentration, but it will be so worth it! I know I can’t do these things of my own willpower and strength, thankfully I have the comfort and aide of His Spirit readily available at all times prompting me, convicting me, guiding me, and always pointing me back to Him. Oh, I also would like to develop a much more developed prayer life including greater intimacy with the Lord and deeper intercession for the saints and the lost alike. I can't wait for this new year and new season! Bring it on!
Thursday, July 21, 2011
Fear-based or Love-based?
FEAR-BASED OR LOVE-BASED THOUGHTS
Let's think about thoughts for a moment! Recently I watched Dr. Caroline Leaf on Sid Roth and she was discussing how many diseases (both physical and mental) derive from our thinking and thought patterns that we've established over time. The good news is that we can fix the 'damage' that was done. It's too technical for me to describe in a mere blog, but she did have science to back it up. Now this isn't just 'positive thinking changes everything', but I do believe that renewing our minds with the Word is a similar concept. She also explained that our thoughts were either fear-based or love-based. I thought about it and she is really onto something. I mean, think about it! Insecurity is based from fears that we don't measure up or by comparing ourselves to others or by fear of something or someone! Pride is also typically derived from a false sense of identity but if we relied on the love and of the Lord, we'd be secure in who we are [and are becoming] in Him! Jealousy/covetesness is similar also, fear that we don't measure up or won't be successful. Even lying and deceit often comes from a type of fear, especially fear of conseqences. Anger too because we fear we don't have control of a situation (or person!). But what about love? God's kind of love produces a sense of worth, purpose, love for others, contentment and joy in His presence, wisdom and focus, etc. So from here, I really want to let the sponge of my brain soak up the Word of God - what He says about me, my situation, my purposes, etc. I wish I could touch more on this, but I have to go for now. But I want to leave you with a copy of the list I've been working on today! Be blessed and choose life n love!
I am taking every thought captive to the lordship of Master Y’shua!
I am strong in the LORD and in the power of His might!
He has not given me a spirit of fear, but of power love and a sound mind!
Now the LORD is Spirit and where the Spirit of the LORD is, there is freedom!
Bless the LORD, oh my soul, and forgot not all His benefits!
This day He has set before me life and death, blessing and curse. I will choose life that I and my descendents shall live!
Life and death is in the power of the tongue!
(I felt the Lord speaking this to me one evening in prayer)
There is a place just for me at His table!
There is a place just for me in His kingdom!
There is a place just for me in His heart!
Let's think about thoughts for a moment! Recently I watched Dr. Caroline Leaf on Sid Roth and she was discussing how many diseases (both physical and mental) derive from our thinking and thought patterns that we've established over time. The good news is that we can fix the 'damage' that was done. It's too technical for me to describe in a mere blog, but she did have science to back it up. Now this isn't just 'positive thinking changes everything', but I do believe that renewing our minds with the Word is a similar concept. She also explained that our thoughts were either fear-based or love-based. I thought about it and she is really onto something. I mean, think about it! Insecurity is based from fears that we don't measure up or by comparing ourselves to others or by fear of something or someone! Pride is also typically derived from a false sense of identity but if we relied on the love and of the Lord, we'd be secure in who we are [and are becoming] in Him! Jealousy/covetesness is similar also, fear that we don't measure up or won't be successful. Even lying and deceit often comes from a type of fear, especially fear of conseqences. Anger too because we fear we don't have control of a situation (or person!). But what about love? God's kind of love produces a sense of worth, purpose, love for others, contentment and joy in His presence, wisdom and focus, etc. So from here, I really want to let the sponge of my brain soak up the Word of God - what He says about me, my situation, my purposes, etc. I wish I could touch more on this, but I have to go for now. But I want to leave you with a copy of the list I've been working on today! Be blessed and choose life n love!
I am taking every thought captive to the lordship of Master Y’shua!
I am strong in the LORD and in the power of His might!
He has not given me a spirit of fear, but of power love and a sound mind!
Now the LORD is Spirit and where the Spirit of the LORD is, there is freedom!
Bless the LORD, oh my soul, and forgot not all His benefits!
This day He has set before me life and death, blessing and curse. I will choose life that I and my descendents shall live!
Life and death is in the power of the tongue!
(I felt the Lord speaking this to me one evening in prayer)
There is a place just for me at His table!
There is a place just for me in His kingdom!
There is a place just for me in His heart!
Thursday, July 14, 2011
True Love - It does exist!
Throughout the week, I keep coming back to the theme of the Song of Songs, I feel so drawn to this topic and in all actuality, drawn to Love itself. It is just so amazing that imperfect humans can experience perfect and pure love – true love. How comforting it is to know that the love of the King is gentle and compassionate, kind and patient, strong and steadfast, and it never fails!
The imagery of the Song of Songs is so intimate and so beautiful. But probably my favorite passage is the one which begins with ‘I am asleep but my heart is awake’ and she goes on to speak of how her heart pounded and she longed for him when he came to the door and thrust his hand through the latch. I love this! And the agony she feels when she finally gets up to greet him and he is gone and nowhere to be found. There is such a longing for him, such anticipation, and such anguish when he’s gone. This really speaks to be of the deep intimacy and fellowship that was intended to comes with being the Bride of Messiah Y’shua. He is not harsh and demanding, but He so greatly desires for us to commune with Him in the secret place of His presence. Human love and marriage is a great gift (as I can attest!), but it can never fully compare or come close to the beautiful romance of the Bridegroom and His Bride. In a way this love - it is a deep mystery, it is terrifying, but utterly intoxicating and wonderful and I desire this love with my King.
The imagery of the Song of Songs is so intimate and so beautiful. But probably my favorite passage is the one which begins with ‘I am asleep but my heart is awake’ and she goes on to speak of how her heart pounded and she longed for him when he came to the door and thrust his hand through the latch. I love this! And the agony she feels when she finally gets up to greet him and he is gone and nowhere to be found. There is such a longing for him, such anticipation, and such anguish when he’s gone. This really speaks to be of the deep intimacy and fellowship that was intended to comes with being the Bride of Messiah Y’shua. He is not harsh and demanding, but He so greatly desires for us to commune with Him in the secret place of His presence. Human love and marriage is a great gift (as I can attest!), but it can never fully compare or come close to the beautiful romance of the Bridegroom and His Bride. In a way this love - it is a deep mystery, it is terrifying, but utterly intoxicating and wonderful and I desire this love with my King.
Tuesday, July 12, 2011
King of Glory - 2 narratives
I’m so excited, any moment my Master and King will come through the door. I have been expecting Him for a long time and I welcome Him in frequently, especially on Shabbats. I must get my home ready, for He may arrive at any time now. I must keep busy! I must prepare myself for He wants to wine and dine with me. He has wanted to fellowship with me! Have I swept out the cobwebs? Have I put things in order? What if he walks in the door right now? Will I be ashamed of the mess that I’ve been too lazy to clean up? Is there room for Him and does He get the best seat in the house? Have I forgotten that He was coming? How can I forget, He’s the King of Glory!
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I have invited the King of Glory to tabernacle with me. I welcome His Spirit and presence to dwell here. I must get my heart ready, so that He is welcome at all times. I must keep busy! I must prepare myself for He wants to fill me with new wine and give me the bread of His words. He desires to fellowship with me! Have I swept out the cobwebs of sins and worldly lusts? Have I put my life in order? Will I be ashamed of the mess of my heart and mind that I’ve been too lazy to clean up? Have I forgotten that He has knocked on the door of my heart? Is there room for Him and does He get the best seat in the house? How can I forget, He’s the King of Glory!
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I have invited the King of Glory to tabernacle with me. I welcome His Spirit and presence to dwell here. I must get my heart ready, so that He is welcome at all times. I must keep busy! I must prepare myself for He wants to fill me with new wine and give me the bread of His words. He desires to fellowship with me! Have I swept out the cobwebs of sins and worldly lusts? Have I put my life in order? Will I be ashamed of the mess of my heart and mind that I’ve been too lazy to clean up? Have I forgotten that He has knocked on the door of my heart? Is there room for Him and does He get the best seat in the house? How can I forget, He’s the King of Glory!
Monday, July 11, 2011
Tonight's Prayer - July 11, 2011
Show me the place where Your presence dwells. Take me to the heights. I remember experiencing and seeing Your glory firsthand. I look back at these times with great awe and deep longing. Your Word is enough, but I cannot help but desire greater intimacy. Let me experience a taste of glory yet again, keep me ever in awe of You. You share no glory and majesty with any other god, it all belongs to You. Quiet my soul that I may come in, to places I’ve never been. Show me where You dwell, guide me through the high places. Let me in to the secret places created just for me and You, the chambers of intimacy created just for us. Arise my Lover, draw me away and I will come with You. May I have the heart of my Master? May I hold His hand as He guides me? May I draw near to Him? How is it that the great King looks at this maiden and has chosen her? Wow, He is looking at me and has called me to be His Bride and to follow and serve Him. What do you desire? What do you need my King? Tell me and I will go, only let me come back to You often. For I cannot bear to be away from You.
Friday, July 8, 2011
His Banner Over Me is Love
So I'm in the midst of Facebooking and I suddenly realized I was singing "His Banner Over Me is Love". I haven't heard that one in a while but I've always liked the simplicity and truth of it. I looked up the rest of the lyrics that I couldn't remember:
"The Lord is mine and I am His, His banner over me is love. He brought me to His banqueting table, His banner over me is love. He lifted me up into Heavenly places, His banner over is love. He is the vine and we are the branches, His banner over me is love. Jesus is the rock of my salvation, His banner over me is love. There's one way to peace through the power of the cross, His banner over me is love." (And though this is how the song goes, I somehow remember a verse of the song that talks about His rejoicing over us with singing.)
Maybe I needed this song today, it's so simple yet so profound.
Thank you Abba that You remind me of Your great love for me in so many ways and when I least expect it! I love how You surprise me!
"The Lord is mine and I am His, His banner over me is love. He brought me to His banqueting table, His banner over me is love. He lifted me up into Heavenly places, His banner over is love. He is the vine and we are the branches, His banner over me is love. Jesus is the rock of my salvation, His banner over me is love. There's one way to peace through the power of the cross, His banner over me is love." (And though this is how the song goes, I somehow remember a verse of the song that talks about His rejoicing over us with singing.)
Maybe I needed this song today, it's so simple yet so profound.
Thank you Abba that You remind me of Your great love for me in so many ways and when I least expect it! I love how You surprise me!
Thursday, July 7, 2011
Let's talk about Issues!
With all the news going on about this criminal and that criminal, it would seem that our society if filled with issues! The world obviously has issues, but what about me? What about you? What about us who are called by His name? Alls I know is we each have our struggles and temptations. I cant say my issues are any less than the next person or that his/hers are worse than mine. Issues are issues. Anything that pulls us away from Him is major, majorly bad! A trap is a trap no matter what it looks like. Sin is sin and it entangles us and weighs us down. We really have to be careful when we talk gossip about other people’s mistakes, sins, and addictions because we wouldn’t want to be so puffed up lest we become weak and blind, falling into temptation. Each person has to deal with his own sin issues. It certainly isn’t smart to use other people’s conduct as the measuring rod for our own conduct, but rather the word of God is the measuring rod or ‘plumbline’ as the Scriptures call it.
And another thing in the topic of our own sin and that of others. I learned a long time ago not to hold a forgiven person to their past, unless of course the past is still with them. We all need to be free in Him, that’s why we need salvation. I’m so thankful that I am saved from eternal damnation and separation from God to eternal life with Him. But I know I need to be ‘saved’ or rescued from the mistakes I make, especially those mistakes that seem to entangle over and over and over again.
My post looks rather preachy and not very coherent. It’s been a long day and I’m rather tired. I guess what I’m mostly trying to say is that we shouldn’t be worrying about the issues of the world so much as we do our own. But it is from knowing that we ARE dealing with our own issues that we can then have the ability to lead others to repentance. But first, let’s be right with God before trying to present God to the world.
And another thing in the topic of our own sin and that of others. I learned a long time ago not to hold a forgiven person to their past, unless of course the past is still with them. We all need to be free in Him, that’s why we need salvation. I’m so thankful that I am saved from eternal damnation and separation from God to eternal life with Him. But I know I need to be ‘saved’ or rescued from the mistakes I make, especially those mistakes that seem to entangle over and over and over again.
My post looks rather preachy and not very coherent. It’s been a long day and I’m rather tired. I guess what I’m mostly trying to say is that we shouldn’t be worrying about the issues of the world so much as we do our own. But it is from knowing that we ARE dealing with our own issues that we can then have the ability to lead others to repentance. But first, let’s be right with God before trying to present God to the world.
Wednesday, July 6, 2011
Too Important Not To!
Today was so hectic...actually my life is always hectic anymore. It's not so much that I have a tight schedule and many things on my event calendar, but rather things have just been busy because of my baby girl. I love her to pieces, but lately it's been so draining! I find myself frustrated and not feeling like the real me.
I was able to have a good deal of down time with the hubby this evening. I really needed the break and the baby went to sleep fairly early. But when 10 oclock rolled around, it felt as though the evening had been wasted...and in a way it had. Most of the evening was spent watching TV.
When 10 oclock (yes, we adults have a bedtime too...although I'm still up obviously) came, we both agreed that the evening was pretty much a waste and that we really need to give God our evenings or at least a much better portion of it, preferably the firstfruits of our evening as able.
But I just couldn't let tonight be a total waste or I would have gone to bed depressed about life and disappointed in how it is spent. So we did have a time of prayer and repentance. Tomorrow is a new day, and His mercies are new every morning. I'm so thankful for that! I pray to God that tomorrow is different, not because of circumstances but rather how I handle my time and the challenging situations that [I know] will arise.
I am writing this entry honestly because I want to convey simply this: Don't let go of prayer time, don't relationship with God the last thing on your mind. This is just too important! Whether life is comfortable right now or life seems to be pushing you to the edge, we all need God in our lives. And when I say need, I mean NEED! It is necessary for His people to be filled with His Spirit if we're going to live victoriously, in wisdom, in strength, in joy, and in obedience. But how can we hear Him if we're 'too busy'? How can we say our lives are about Him, if really it's not. This isn't about condemnation, but about returning to Him, RUNNING to Him!
Father, I thank you tonight for Your love that forgives and renews us even when we fail many times. Your love keeps drawing us back to Yourself, into sweet fellowship with You. Renew me and refresh my life that I can serve You joyfully and that my heart is glad. But my heart IS glad right now. You hear our prayers and you are near when we call upon You.
I was able to have a good deal of down time with the hubby this evening. I really needed the break and the baby went to sleep fairly early. But when 10 oclock rolled around, it felt as though the evening had been wasted...and in a way it had. Most of the evening was spent watching TV.
When 10 oclock (yes, we adults have a bedtime too...although I'm still up obviously) came, we both agreed that the evening was pretty much a waste and that we really need to give God our evenings or at least a much better portion of it, preferably the firstfruits of our evening as able.
But I just couldn't let tonight be a total waste or I would have gone to bed depressed about life and disappointed in how it is spent. So we did have a time of prayer and repentance. Tomorrow is a new day, and His mercies are new every morning. I'm so thankful for that! I pray to God that tomorrow is different, not because of circumstances but rather how I handle my time and the challenging situations that [I know] will arise.
I am writing this entry honestly because I want to convey simply this: Don't let go of prayer time, don't relationship with God the last thing on your mind. This is just too important! Whether life is comfortable right now or life seems to be pushing you to the edge, we all need God in our lives. And when I say need, I mean NEED! It is necessary for His people to be filled with His Spirit if we're going to live victoriously, in wisdom, in strength, in joy, and in obedience. But how can we hear Him if we're 'too busy'? How can we say our lives are about Him, if really it's not. This isn't about condemnation, but about returning to Him, RUNNING to Him!
Father, I thank you tonight for Your love that forgives and renews us even when we fail many times. Your love keeps drawing us back to Yourself, into sweet fellowship with You. Renew me and refresh my life that I can serve You joyfully and that my heart is glad. But my heart IS glad right now. You hear our prayers and you are near when we call upon You.
Shirking - Time to Step-Up to the Plate!
Shirking...what a strange word if you say it over and over again! So what's it mean? Without going into the dictionary definition or formal etymology, it basically just means to put off, procrastinate, throw off usually in the context of duty.
Why do we do this? It seems to be a normal human flaw to put off that which we can (and should) do today. I was thinking about this while munching on some lunch. This phrase came to mind: "Time to step up to the plate". It has to do with maturity and taking on responsibility. How many times as children and young adults did we desire to cast off the things of childhood and be a grown up with all the freedoms? But what about all the growing up that growing up requires! Whatever our current position or job title however large or small, we are called to do it with excellence. I know there's a verse somewhere in the Bible that says "Whatsoever your hand findeth to do, do so with all your might". This is one I could keep reminding myself of over and over again.
As a stay at home mom, it is a multifaceted role! It means for the most part, I am:
-Chef/cook
-Nurse
-Counselor
-Maid
-Organizer
-Guardian
-and much, much more!
But as a stay at home mom, it's so tempting to let the time fly and do my own thing. It's just too easy to leave the dishes in the sink, the laundry in various piles, and just order Chinese for dinner. Even right now, I'm still in my jammies!
But my calling right now is to be a wife and mother. There is much fulfillment not because it's my only purpose, but because it IS a major part of my calling so I want to do my best at it.
I couldn't wait for the day that I would one day meet my true love and have children. Now that day is here and has been here for quite a while now. And with the beautiful fulfillment of my hopes and dreams comes responsibility. 'To whom much is given, much is required'. It's so true, but it needn't ever be a drudgery but rather a joy! It does take motivation and not just a one-time deal.
Father, I am again reminded that in Your faithfulness, You have blessed me with the desires of my heart. Now I ask that you help me to be faithful with the blessings I have been given. Give me strength and joy for whatever task is at hand and help me to do it well and with excellence. Amein.
Why do we do this? It seems to be a normal human flaw to put off that which we can (and should) do today. I was thinking about this while munching on some lunch. This phrase came to mind: "Time to step up to the plate". It has to do with maturity and taking on responsibility. How many times as children and young adults did we desire to cast off the things of childhood and be a grown up with all the freedoms? But what about all the growing up that growing up requires! Whatever our current position or job title however large or small, we are called to do it with excellence. I know there's a verse somewhere in the Bible that says "Whatsoever your hand findeth to do, do so with all your might". This is one I could keep reminding myself of over and over again.
As a stay at home mom, it is a multifaceted role! It means for the most part, I am:
-Chef/cook
-Nurse
-Counselor
-Maid
-Organizer
-Guardian
-and much, much more!
But as a stay at home mom, it's so tempting to let the time fly and do my own thing. It's just too easy to leave the dishes in the sink, the laundry in various piles, and just order Chinese for dinner. Even right now, I'm still in my jammies!
But my calling right now is to be a wife and mother. There is much fulfillment not because it's my only purpose, but because it IS a major part of my calling so I want to do my best at it.
I couldn't wait for the day that I would one day meet my true love and have children. Now that day is here and has been here for quite a while now. And with the beautiful fulfillment of my hopes and dreams comes responsibility. 'To whom much is given, much is required'. It's so true, but it needn't ever be a drudgery but rather a joy! It does take motivation and not just a one-time deal.
Father, I am again reminded that in Your faithfulness, You have blessed me with the desires of my heart. Now I ask that you help me to be faithful with the blessings I have been given. Give me strength and joy for whatever task is at hand and help me to do it well and with excellence. Amein.
An Observation on Productivity
So part of the job description as wife and mother is keeping my family clean and healthy by keeping a clean home. Oh man, I'm so not a natural at this housewife thing! You'd think after 2+ years, it would be easy peesy (do they say that anymore??), but nope! I still struggle keeping myself on task. Oddly enough, I am getting more done with my life now that I have a baby than I did before she arrived! I guess maybe it's because I appreciate the precious little time I have to accomplish as much as I can.
I think it's just a fact of life that when we have all the time in the world, we tend to procrastinate and be lazy. But when we're pushed to hurry up or we have a time limit, we tend to be MUCH more efficient! At least, that's how it is in my case.
Well I guess I've sat at the computer long enough talking about productivity...it's time to get back to real productivity! Later ya'lls, thanks for listening to my ramblings.
Father, I love that You have given me a home and family to take care of! Help me to be diligent in my service to my family and to Your ultimate glory.
I think it's just a fact of life that when we have all the time in the world, we tend to procrastinate and be lazy. But when we're pushed to hurry up or we have a time limit, we tend to be MUCH more efficient! At least, that's how it is in my case.
Well I guess I've sat at the computer long enough talking about productivity...it's time to get back to real productivity! Later ya'lls, thanks for listening to my ramblings.
Father, I love that You have given me a home and family to take care of! Help me to be diligent in my service to my family and to Your ultimate glory.
Tuesday, July 5, 2011
Appreciation requires Realization
So ‘Flower’ just woke up from her nap and I started to cuddle and play with her. It’s our usual routine. She plays quietly then falls asleep while I cuddle next to her. Then when she wakes up, I play quietly with her for a bit. Oh you know, the usual – ‘munching’ on her toes, tickling her, being silly, and lots of kisses!
I love my baby girl and I’m thankful for her, but true appreciation for a thing or person doesn’t happen until realization (or reality, same derivative) takes place. I always love my baby girl, but I can honestly say I don’t always fully appreciate her because life just becomes a routine sometimes. I have a kid which means I change the baby, feed the baby, play with the baby, and put the baby to sleep. That’s pretty much the routine for most mothers of small children! But what makes me appreciate my baby as opposed to just taking care of a baby? This simple reality:
‘Flower’ is MY baby girl! She’s not just a baby, she’s my baby! My husband and I produced her out of love. She’s part of me and she’s part of him. I’m not just taking care of a child, I’m taking care of my daughter. I’m going to watch her grow up and I’m going to be there for the bumps and bruises, the first ‘I love you’, her first steps, her whole learning process, and dare I even begin to think about her growing up, wow! Yup, that’s where the appreciation really comes in! I am realizing that I’m a mother to an amazing, fascinating child that is flesh of my flesh. This is what makes motherhood special, to know that I’m providing the nurture and nourishment for the very life that my husband and I made together. She looks like me, she looks like ‘Prince’. It’s a miracle in a sense! And with all the frustrations and quirks that I go through with her, it’s just a part of who she is – wonderfully and handmade by God!
Abba, thank You for the miracle of giving life! Children are indeed a gift and blessing! Help me to always appreciate and selflessly love my little girl. I ask for the stregnth and patience motherhood requires! Im truly thankful for my sweet baby girl! Amein!
I love my baby girl and I’m thankful for her, but true appreciation for a thing or person doesn’t happen until realization (or reality, same derivative) takes place. I always love my baby girl, but I can honestly say I don’t always fully appreciate her because life just becomes a routine sometimes. I have a kid which means I change the baby, feed the baby, play with the baby, and put the baby to sleep. That’s pretty much the routine for most mothers of small children! But what makes me appreciate my baby as opposed to just taking care of a baby? This simple reality:
‘Flower’ is MY baby girl! She’s not just a baby, she’s my baby! My husband and I produced her out of love. She’s part of me and she’s part of him. I’m not just taking care of a child, I’m taking care of my daughter. I’m going to watch her grow up and I’m going to be there for the bumps and bruises, the first ‘I love you’, her first steps, her whole learning process, and dare I even begin to think about her growing up, wow! Yup, that’s where the appreciation really comes in! I am realizing that I’m a mother to an amazing, fascinating child that is flesh of my flesh. This is what makes motherhood special, to know that I’m providing the nurture and nourishment for the very life that my husband and I made together. She looks like me, she looks like ‘Prince’. It’s a miracle in a sense! And with all the frustrations and quirks that I go through with her, it’s just a part of who she is – wonderfully and handmade by God!
Abba, thank You for the miracle of giving life! Children are indeed a gift and blessing! Help me to always appreciate and selflessly love my little girl. I ask for the stregnth and patience motherhood requires! Im truly thankful for my sweet baby girl! Amein!
Just a 'thumbs-up' for Marriage!
So the title of my blog is 'Marriage, Motherhood & More'. I'm thinking maybe I should actually start writing about these things a little! I guess I somewhat started in my last post. It would seem as though I will be writing sporadically, maybe skipping days and maybe writing multiple posts. It's my first day, so I'm exciting to start talking...err...um...blogging that is!
Well since marriage comes before motherhood, I'll write bout marriage first. I really don't have anything to say except that marriage is AWESOME! But lately it would seem there is such an attack on marriage in our society! It just doesn't seem to be the norm anymore. Instead of getting into all the things that are wrong with our society today, I'll just say that I'm routing for marriage! I know there's a lot of bitterness, confusion, and hurt surrounding the topic for many, but married life really IS amazing!
I'm no expert on the subject and I only have 2.5 years experience in that field but married life is such a blessing. I have to say that the closer we get to God, the closer we get to each other. As cliche as that sounds, it is very true. We've been through a lot together. Deployment, miscarriage, pregnancy, and raising our first child, all under 3 years! Our marriage isn't perfect, but it is solid. The love is there, the commitment is there, and yes still that sense of adventure even in the ordinary everyday living. It isn't always obvious, everyday isn't always great, but I'd get married all over again to the same man if given the chance.
Maybe someday I'll post how God brought my husband and I together, but for now I just wanted to blog a little bit for the sake of marriage!
Father, I thank you that You created marriage to be holy and wonderful and fun! I thank you for the godly husband You have given to me and I pray that my marriage both publicly and in private will glorify You!
Well since marriage comes before motherhood, I'll write bout marriage first. I really don't have anything to say except that marriage is AWESOME! But lately it would seem there is such an attack on marriage in our society! It just doesn't seem to be the norm anymore. Instead of getting into all the things that are wrong with our society today, I'll just say that I'm routing for marriage! I know there's a lot of bitterness, confusion, and hurt surrounding the topic for many, but married life really IS amazing!
I'm no expert on the subject and I only have 2.5 years experience in that field but married life is such a blessing. I have to say that the closer we get to God, the closer we get to each other. As cliche as that sounds, it is very true. We've been through a lot together. Deployment, miscarriage, pregnancy, and raising our first child, all under 3 years! Our marriage isn't perfect, but it is solid. The love is there, the commitment is there, and yes still that sense of adventure even in the ordinary everyday living. It isn't always obvious, everyday isn't always great, but I'd get married all over again to the same man if given the chance.
Maybe someday I'll post how God brought my husband and I together, but for now I just wanted to blog a little bit for the sake of marriage!
Father, I thank you that You created marriage to be holy and wonderful and fun! I thank you for the godly husband You have given to me and I pray that my marriage both publicly and in private will glorify You!
Introduction/First Post
I can’t help but feel I’m missing out on something. Wouldn’t it be nice to travel the world? To do a mission’s trip and see crowds of people get saved? To be a part of something greater and more exciting than the little world I call my own. Let’s backtrack a little first.
This blogging thing is fairly new to me, so let me introduce myself. I’m pretty tightfisted when it comes to matters of privacy, so for privacy’s sake just call me “J”. I’m married to a wonderful, godly man (anonymously referred to as ‘Prince’ because that’s the pet name I gave him the day we got engaged) and a beautiful baby girl (affectionately termed ‘Flower’ here).
My interests are semi-lacking at the moment, but include photography, writing, and spending time with my little family. My political views I’m sure will come out eventually in this blog and as to religious views, I’m sure those will come out on here as well! But for now, I’d like to resume my first blog post…
Okay, now where was I? Oh yeah, I was mumbling about how I feel I’m missing something in life. I guess life is actually pretty amazing. I feel incredibly blessed to have a godly husband and a very cute and healthy baby. But I think we all get to a place where we feel life is boring or dry and we just want something new or easier or just plain different! Am I right? The day to day stuff can be downright frustrating!
But recently I found myself wondering, what if something tragic would happen and I were to lose the life I know right now. Life is uncomfortable and fairly uneventful, but if I were to lose it all and then suddenly get it back, wouldn’t I view my life so much differently? I mean, I’d be SO grateful to have this ‘unexciting’ life back, right? When it all comes down to it, everything I experience – my husband, my child, my home, my family, the little joys and little frustrations – it all makes up this thing called my life. And you know what, it’s not bad at all! Like I said, I’m incredibly blessed!
But at the same time, these things are great but they are not enough. As much as a change of scene (whether it’s just a coffee shop or traveling to another country) sounds just wonderful, that’s not what makes life fun and adventurous and meaningful. Life’s meaning can’t come from what we do, where we go, who is in our lives. It has to come from something so much more than this. My purpose, my meaning in life, and that big word ‘identity’, has to come from who I am in Messiah Y’shua. What does He want me to do? What or who does He want me to be? Why am I here? These are pretty big questions and I can’t answer those in fullness, no one really can!
But I can say this, I am married hence I am a wife. I have a child, hence I am a mother. Though these things do not solely define me, they are major aspects of my God-given purposes. If He just wants me to be a wife and mother for now, I am totally fine with that even on the days (which seem to be many) that I kick and scream (not literally…usually…).
I would like to do something I hadn’t planned on doing, I want to end my blog posts with a prayer. And this my prayer after today’s blog post: My Lord, I thank you for the life You have given me. I am thankful that I am blessed to be a wife and a mother. Help me to be the best I can be at this through Your Spirit, give me the joy and strength I need for each day. But I thank You most of all that I am Yours, may my life be pleasing to You! Amein.
This blogging thing is fairly new to me, so let me introduce myself. I’m pretty tightfisted when it comes to matters of privacy, so for privacy’s sake just call me “J”. I’m married to a wonderful, godly man (anonymously referred to as ‘Prince’ because that’s the pet name I gave him the day we got engaged) and a beautiful baby girl (affectionately termed ‘Flower’ here).
My interests are semi-lacking at the moment, but include photography, writing, and spending time with my little family. My political views I’m sure will come out eventually in this blog and as to religious views, I’m sure those will come out on here as well! But for now, I’d like to resume my first blog post…
Okay, now where was I? Oh yeah, I was mumbling about how I feel I’m missing something in life. I guess life is actually pretty amazing. I feel incredibly blessed to have a godly husband and a very cute and healthy baby. But I think we all get to a place where we feel life is boring or dry and we just want something new or easier or just plain different! Am I right? The day to day stuff can be downright frustrating!
But recently I found myself wondering, what if something tragic would happen and I were to lose the life I know right now. Life is uncomfortable and fairly uneventful, but if I were to lose it all and then suddenly get it back, wouldn’t I view my life so much differently? I mean, I’d be SO grateful to have this ‘unexciting’ life back, right? When it all comes down to it, everything I experience – my husband, my child, my home, my family, the little joys and little frustrations – it all makes up this thing called my life. And you know what, it’s not bad at all! Like I said, I’m incredibly blessed!
But at the same time, these things are great but they are not enough. As much as a change of scene (whether it’s just a coffee shop or traveling to another country) sounds just wonderful, that’s not what makes life fun and adventurous and meaningful. Life’s meaning can’t come from what we do, where we go, who is in our lives. It has to come from something so much more than this. My purpose, my meaning in life, and that big word ‘identity’, has to come from who I am in Messiah Y’shua. What does He want me to do? What or who does He want me to be? Why am I here? These are pretty big questions and I can’t answer those in fullness, no one really can!
But I can say this, I am married hence I am a wife. I have a child, hence I am a mother. Though these things do not solely define me, they are major aspects of my God-given purposes. If He just wants me to be a wife and mother for now, I am totally fine with that even on the days (which seem to be many) that I kick and scream (not literally…usually…).
I would like to do something I hadn’t planned on doing, I want to end my blog posts with a prayer. And this my prayer after today’s blog post: My Lord, I thank you for the life You have given me. I am thankful that I am blessed to be a wife and a mother. Help me to be the best I can be at this through Your Spirit, give me the joy and strength I need for each day. But I thank You most of all that I am Yours, may my life be pleasing to You! Amein.
*Disclaimer*
1) Anonymity - For the same of anonymity, no real names will be mentioned in my blog posts.
2) Honesty - For the sake of the reader, blog posts may be copied/pasted and edited OR they may just appear as they are, but one way or the other my comments and posts are my own. I don't pretend to know it all or have all the answers, neither will I hold back from my opinions for the sake of political correctness. Posts whether spontaneous or well-thought out will be quite direct and honest.
3) Purpose - Do I need a specific purpose? The world needs people who are honest about life and I'm here to show the good, the bad, and the downright ugly. I may share advice and insight, I may rant a little, or I may just blog to simply write out my thoughts whether it's about the deep matters of life or to simply share recipes or a laugh.
4) Enjoy! Please no spam, swearing, or hating!
2) Honesty - For the sake of the reader, blog posts may be copied/pasted and edited OR they may just appear as they are, but one way or the other my comments and posts are my own. I don't pretend to know it all or have all the answers, neither will I hold back from my opinions for the sake of political correctness. Posts whether spontaneous or well-thought out will be quite direct and honest.
3) Purpose - Do I need a specific purpose? The world needs people who are honest about life and I'm here to show the good, the bad, and the downright ugly. I may share advice and insight, I may rant a little, or I may just blog to simply write out my thoughts whether it's about the deep matters of life or to simply share recipes or a laugh.
4) Enjoy! Please no spam, swearing, or hating!
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